I am a stay at home mom (SAHM) of two sweet boys. I love to cook/bake, but love to eat the finished product more. I am addicted to sugar and may someday need an intervention. I love photography and creating. I am a bit of perfectionist, so it usually takes me a long time thinking things through and working on them to know how I want it to look and get it just right when creating something. I have found that I need multiple projects going at the same time. I used to think that maybe I just sucked at finishing things because it could take me so long to work on something let alone complete it. But now I know that having multiple things going at once helps me. When I don’t feel like working on one thing I can work on something else. And occasionally (or not so occasionally) I don’t feel like working on any of them. I’m working on being ok with that, and most days succeed in that endeavor.
I used to think that you were either an extrovert or an introvert. But I have found that I am pretty close to the middle of both. I need the down time that introverts need, but also need the socialization that extroverts need to be happy. Sometimes being in the middle is hard because both sides of you pull in opposite directions at the same time. Sometimes it’s hard to know which way to choose, and I always worry I’ll choose the wrong one. I have depression, and this is accented by mild anxiety.
I also have been dealing with secondary infertility, and now am transitioning into the mourning phase of not having anymore kids, and being okay with how our family is now. I’ve also dealt with secondary infertility, and have come to accept that I will be the only girl in our family. All fun while my fantastic husband attends medical school residency. It took me many years to seek help with my depression, I kept thinking I could take care of it myself. Now I wish that I sought treatment sooner so that I could have had more happy days along the way. I strongly suggest to anyone who may be depressed to seek help through a doctor. Talk to them and get medication that works for you, or counseling, or both. It will take a few tries to get the medication levels right, don’t be afraid to talk to your doctor if you feel the levels aren’t right. Medication AND counseling have helped me soooooo sooooo much!