TT: Christmas

Thankful Thursday Logo bAs many people do at this time of year, I stop and reflect on the important things in life. I am greatly blessed. A warm home, a sweet family, and many friends. This is most likely to be our last Christmas here, which is sad and exciting. Unfortunately it is not a white Christmas as today’s high was 66. Craziness. But luckily the weather is not what Christmas is about, nor does it make or break the holiday. 067This time of year is so much fun, it is a time of traditions, and love. And as my family and I sit here in our Christmas pj’s (that we open each year on Christmas Eve) and watch a Muppet Christmas Carol, I am grateful for the real reason of Christmas. The gospel of Jesus Christ, His earthly mission for us, I can never be grateful enough for all it has done for me. For who it has helped me to become. Whether you believe in Him or not, He is a great example for us all on how to live our lives. For others, and not so much for ourselves. As said by Ebeneezer Scrooge at the end of the story,

“Men’s courses will foreshadow certain ends, to which, if persevered in, they must lead. But if the courses be departed from, the ends will change…”

“I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year. I will live in the Past, the Present, and the Future. . . . I will not shut out the lessons that they teach.”

 

 

TT: The End

Thankful Thursday Logo bSorry about totally forgetting last week, I’m going to go with the excuse of new job and single parenting with the hubs out of town. Today I’m grateful for interviews being over. Yay! I’m glad that DrH had the ones he did, but I’m so over him coming and going so much. It seemed pretty constant. I even started a job and went 2 weeks without him home. This week it’s been weird to be the one leaving before him in the mornings, but I’ll take him being home over gone anytime!

As far as work goes, it’s pretty good. I’m finding my rhythm and getting to know the people and the job. And on top of all that (as if feeling more comfortable at work and getting to see your husband isn’t enough) Christmas is next week! I’m pretty excited to watch everyone open their presents. I love it. I love seeing people excited and happy with gifts, it fills me with joy. And what better way to spend this wonderful holiday than making others happy? What’s your favorite thing at Christmas?

TT: Successful Visit

Thankful Thursday Logo bChristmas is over and I don’t actually feel like never seeing family again. No really it was a great trip.

But let me back up. Christmas 2013 was the BEST Christmas E V E R! We stayed home and had our own little Christmas. We cut down our own tree, played in the snow, relaxed the whole season. The kids actually got to play with their toys on Christmas day, and we had a nice dinner with friends. Since we were married 11 1/2 years ago Christmas has consisted of waking up, opening our own presents then immediately getting ready and going to my in-laws’, eat brunch talk a bit, open presents there, immediately go to my family and talk while everyone showed up, open presents, eat dinner,  go home and put kids to bed.

My family hasn’t always been the easiest to get along with. And they have had a hard time understanding my different personality. But over the last year or so it has been a better relationship. Instead of going out at Christmas 2013 we opted to go in Feb instead. And it was great! It broke up the craziness of visiting family and the craziness of Christmas. Like I said, best Christmas ever, but also (at least then)  that was the best visit ever. Before we moved across the country, we would all get together when my brothers and families came out to visit. So it has been a similar situation for most of our marriage, though now we are some of the ones coming into town.

Then this year (well technically last year) both of my brothers were going out for Christmas, and we knew that it would be the right thing for us to do as well. I was nervous about how it would all go down, including all our kids there are a lot of us. I feared I wouldn’t be able to escape the feel of bedlam and retreat for my introverted side. But we hadn’t seen my oldest brother and his family since we moved 2 1/2 years ago, and I knew it would mean a lot to my mom to have everyone there. (and as a bonus we could update the fam photo- the last one has an ex-wife, and my almost 6 yr old was about 18 months. So it was definitely time)

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In the end it was great, even with the boys and me going out a few days before DrH (ugh flight prices). There were a few times I was feeling homesick, and a few of wanting to retreat, but we were able to retreat when we needed. And my family was so much more understanding of that. We all got along great (on both sides of our families) and had a lot of fun together. My family was also extremely supportive and sensitive to us in a difficult circumstance on our last day there. And they have since been a great support in this particular struggle.

And I am so grateful for this support and love. It is one of the few times I have felt truly loved by my family in my life. I’ve always known they love me, but since my personality is so different from all of theirs it has been a life long struggle to actually feel that love from them. I am grateful to know (and be reminded) that they are truly there for us. And I am again feeling like I want to move back closer at the end of Med School. (not the same state, but one close by so it’s easier and cheaper to visit)

TT: Christmas

Thankful Thursday Logo b“You kids quiet down!”

“They’re kids Grandma, kids are noisy remember?”

“Well they can be taught to be quiet!”

“Umm, ok, but they aren’t really being that loud. Believe me they can be a lot louder.”

“Well! I’ll just go home then!” Mumbled as she walks away to the next room. By the time she gets there, though, it has already been forgotten. And I hear her from the next room, “What’s this movie about?”

That’s not the first time she’s asked that either.

That was a fun hour alone with my Alzheimered grandma.  What happened to meeting here at 1:30 everybody?! Today definitely had some very irksome moments. And by some I mean a lot. I would rather spend Christmas at home with my little family. But since all of my siblings flew out this year, it was the right thing for us to fly out too. Besides it’s been 2 1/2 years since we’ve seen my oldest brother’s family. And it’s made my mom so happy to have us all here at the same time. So I try to let it roll off and be ok.

Despite not liking visiting for Christmas, it’s nice to see everyone. And really what this day is all about is one child’s birth. And that is what I am most grateful for out of everything in my life. I can never repay Him for what He has done for me, or given me. I can never live up to the same standard. But that is not what He asks of me. Only that I try my best, and continue to endure and keep trying. He doesn’t care that I make tonz of mistakes, only that I give an honest try and a sincere apology when needed. Only that I keep learning and growing. He is not insistent that I am perfect now. Only that I allow Him to make me into something better than I could myself. His love inspires me, encourages me, and comforts me. He knows better than I what I need to become better, and how to help me. For Him I am most grateful, especially at this special time of year to celebrate it!

Merry Christmas!