A Question For You

I’ve been contemplating the last couple weeks of what to here. I like the Thankful Thursday posts, they have kept me writing, kept me positive, and change my view of circumstances. But this blog isn’t just a Thankful Thursday blog. Even though for stretches that’s all I’ve done. I’m ready for more. So the goal is to still write at least once a week, but switch things up. So about once a month I’ll do a Thankful Thursday, but the other weeks will have other stuff.

I have  a couple ideas of subjects, but thought I’d also ask you for your opinions. I still write this blog for me and to be my outlet. But I also know that getting other opinions/suggestions can help us grow, or think of things we haven’t before. So… What subject or post have you really enjoyed here? What would you like to see more of?

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Homeless

Guess what?! No… we still live in a hotel! But in better news we will soon be homeless. I’m so excited! No, really. Everything is still on track for our home out West to close on Monday. And we won’t have to worry about it anymore. YAY!

Theoretically we also close this next week on our new home here, but instead of getting to write a Thankful Thursday post about it yesterday (and how this time next week I won’t be living in a hotel), I got to comfort my husband and try not to freak out inside. The underwriter, loan officer, whoever, that we are dealing with for our loan is being a jerk face. We have given them everything but our fist born, and they still want us to jump through some hoops. UGH!!!!!! So we sit here worried that they won’t actually give us the loan they said we could have to buy the home we should close on next week. STRESS!!!!!!ING!!!!!!!!!!!OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Deep breaths, and positive thoughts.

Apparently God wants me to change my attitude about life. I keep wanting  things to go more smoothly and people to chill out. But that’s NEVER how things go for us. Like ever. It’s always a hassle, and extra work on our part. So jealous of you people that just have things go right. Anywho… Apparently God wants me to chillax myself and be ok with things taking extra time and steps and stress and hassle.  Maybe one day I’ll learn that lesson. But every time I just keep thinking that “this time things are going to work out and go smoothly.” HA! So fingers crossed we can still buy this house, cuz I sorta already signed the kids up for school.

Happy Friday everyone!

TT: Normal Life

Thankful Thursday Logo bAnother week… yep still in a hotel. Hotel living gives you an appreciation of normal life. And maybe that’s what I’ve been needing to learn here. In everyday life it’s easy to get into ruts, things to be boring, and for us to become ungrateful for the blessings we have. In the “bla” of everyday we stop seeing those smaller blessings that really make our everyday wonderful, and functional.

Having a proper kitchen, I have always been grateful of a good kitchen, but not having one for a month and a half lets me know how much I truly appreciate it. And it also lets me know that you really can get by with much less than we have. And we take it all for granted.

We have so much luxury, so much technology to make our lives easier, it all becomes the everyday to us and we don’t see how truly miraculous it all really is. How lucky we really are to have it in our lives.

Yes we’re going to forget, and start to take things for granted. We’ll get in our ruts, and complain. But then we’ll get to have something happen to help us remember how blessed we are, and how much we have. We just have to realize that bad days help us see, and appreciate the good ones. Use them to re-adjust our perspective, not seeing the bad day today, but the blessings that are always around us. Even in bad days we have many blessings. And I’m grateful to have these moments of realization to change my perspective. And get out of my self pity parties. Because there are so many miracles in everyday life for me to appreciate.

Balance

Wow guys. I am finding out that I don’t do so well without friends. Or husband. He’s been working regular Dr hours again. Which means I’m single parenting it for most of my time. Yesterday was pretty exciting though. He finally got his first day off since starting on the 20th! Yay! We also are under contract for selling our West home, and under another for buying one here.

So today I should be on cloud nine right now. And yet I’m not. I feel stressed, tired, bored, unproductive. And this all triggers depression for me. And with no network of friends to help give me a break, no home to get settled into, and DrH working Dr hours (11-16 hrs/day 6 days/week) it all seems to just keep piling up right now. Ah depression my good friend. I love when you visit. (can you hear the sarcasm?)

What is great is that this place already feels like where we live instead of a foreign place we don’t belong, except for that bit about us living in a hotel.  And lets be honest, when I have nothing really to do I go a little crazy. Doing things with friends and having something planned with people really helps. Except when the introvert side is winning. I guess I’m finding that having balance in my life is the difference between things being annoying and stressful or being depressed and anxious. Can’t wait till I can actually feel happiness and excitement for all this good stuff. But for now you’ll all have to feel the excitement for me. I’ll be able to fully join you soon I think.

Welcome to the Hotel California

Have you ever stayed at a hotel and seen people come down for the free breakfast in their pajamas? Maybe you’ve seen someone walking around with their hair up in a towel. Maybe they have a hamper or two on their hip. Maybe their hair is in the towel, a hamper on each hip and a bright pink workout bra is peaking out on their shoulders. I would like to say hi, we’re the people living in the hotel. Welcome to our home. (and I may, or may not, have done all of the previous things)

We’ve only lived here for a little more than a week 2 weeks (yes, I’ve been that slow at getting this posted), and I have to say it’s definitely a unique experience. We’ve stayed in hotels several times before, but staying a night or a few is very different than living in a hotel. Even if it’s only been a week 2 weeks so far. Our plan was to stay in some type of temporary place until we could find a home to buy. We’ll be in this lovely state for at least 5 years, so it makes sense to us. Our temporary place ending up being this fantastic hotel. And it’s unlike anything.

It’s a bit like living in an apartment, except that you don’t have a full apartment. And you share breakfast with your family and your closest 20 strangers. And honestly it’s harder to live in a hotel than you think. It sounds fun, and honestly it’s not too bad, but it’s not as fun as you might think. Extended time at close quarters. Being on a long vacation, except you don’t have money to do anything because you aren’t actually on vacation. You try to live real life, but it’s surreal since your in a hotel. Weird, sometimes fun, sometimes boring you to death.  And like life, much nicer when you have friends to do things with. But that’s a story for another post…

Its Coming!

2 weeks!!!! Ahhhhhh, that’s all we have left before we move. Moving is one of those things that always seems like it’s next month. But then you realize it’s for real happening, and not in the dreamy future, but now! Always a weird feeling, that.

When I got married I moved out of the parent’s house and never looked back. Would have liked to move out sooner, but couldn’t afford rent AND film/processing (photo major). But we still lived around the same area that I knew. Fast forward a bunch of years, when we found out we got into Med School in New England… Well that was truly my first time moving away from home. It was hard. I felt sad that I couldn’t take all the good things with me and continue on. Life was going to go on without me there, and I was going to miss it all.

My family was having a family reunion the week we moved and posting pictures on Facebook. It kinda really sucked the first few weeks. And it was harder than I thought it would be. When we went home for Christmas that first year, I was just barely starting to feel like we belonged in New England. But then going home was weird. It didn’t feel like home for the first time in my life. And when we got back to New England, it didn’t quite feel like home anymore either. For a few months I felt like I didn’t belong anywhere. And then it was home, and going to the west was visiting.

And now I have to leave home again. But this time I know better what type of emotions to expect, and that I can get through it. It’s sad leaving, but we aren’t the only ones moving on this time. Nor are we the first in our group of friends from out here. I still expect to feel homesick and all that, but I feel more excited and ready emotionally this time. And I’m excited to see what adventures will come our way from this move. T-2 weeks till real Mexican food! Bigger beaches! And a whole lot of unknown fun!

TT: Selling

Thankful Thursday Logo bSo we have a house out West. We bought it long before med school was on the table. And when we moved to New England for school, we couldn’t sell our house at the time. So we rented it out. These last renters were pretty hard on the property. So it took way longer to get on the market than we thought it would. But we finally got it on last week, and in the first 2 days we had 17 showings and 2 offers, with the 3rd day giving 4 more showings and 2 more offers.

We knew the market was good for selling right now, but we still didn’t expect everything to happen so quickly or for the 1st 2 offers to be above asking. Huzzah! Here’s hoping everything goes through with this contract, it’ll give us a way to have a down payment in our new area. Yay for not paying rent (which is higher than mortgages) over the next 5 years!

God knows what He’s doing. Knowing that selling now was going to be way better for us than selling 4 years ago. Not just because of the market, but because the sale gives a way to have our own home in the Mid West. I am thankful for times like these, when the Lord allows me to see why dealing with certain trials is actually better for me temporally. And that’s not to mention it helping me grow stronger in life, grow closer to the Lord, and have more faith.